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2005 December:
[ ]Prepping for the NeonLovesParis NYE party...
[ ]l'electro a sherbrooke
[ ]dec. 22, 2005
[ ]Reflexion sur le silence
[ ]Bleach closing
[ ]a trancy guy
[ ]La relève RAVE est en marche...
[ ]Romaji
[ ]Win my cd !
[ ]og
2005 November:
[ ]Event Hardcore avec DJ-Dione/ENOID
[ ]Mon sommeil
[ ]muhahahaha
[ ]Reflexion sur le vice
[ ]...
[ ]plur?
[ ]Undenied
[ ]yyyyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy
[ ]pokus
[ ]toi
[ ]Paul Personal Journal DO NOT READ
[ ]so what the hell?
[ ]My religion.
[ ]H fo the hizzo!!
2005 October:
[ ]cant sleep
[ ]Je dormais. (version raccourci)
[ ]Faire le tri
[ ]Quelques Données De Base Sur l'Univers
[ ]wierd
[ ]JOKE inside!
[ ]I love Rave.ca
[ ]lunch break
[ ]BLACKLIGHT
[ ]Rectification!
[ ]FUCK IT .......
[ ]Dire qu'il y a du monde qui lit ca!
[ ]me
[ ]My cd now @ AtomHeart
[ ]title
[ ]Mon conte pour enfant : ISiLDOR
2005 September:
[ ]Somewhere out there...
[ ]i'm bored
[ ]dkouragé
[ ]F**k you
[ ]Water Carrier
[ ].....
[ ]New Song
[ ]Win CD
[ ]Le sirop antitoussif.. ça gèle en criss (pis ça rime!!)
[ ]salut !
[ ]ah lamour
[ ]Trucs pour attirer ''l'attention...'' d'une femme
2005 August:
[ ]Jeune, Candy et tant de temps a perdre.... !
[ ]Story Of Evil-Ution
[ ]Je Me Souviens . . .
[ ]phrases et pensées personnelles quelconques
[ ]Oh le raunch
[ ]burning man
[ ]just un-married
[ ]3. 2. 1.. BLAST OFF!
[ ]Interesting
[ ]Je suis un aviateur chinois.
[ ]Comment survivre dans des cas extrèmes.
[ ]Shooting Star
[ ]Time
[ ]Update
[ ]free+attraction in your space
[ ]sane as hell
[ ]Ca va vite!
[ ]to: mr.greedy
[ ]Je veux trop aller au Sziget !!!
[ ]Kossé ca st'option là?
2005 July:
[ ]Karma
[ ]lisez si vous avez le courage...
[ ]FIRST TIMER!
[ ]Je l'aime ma soeur
[ ]Friday July 8th 2005
[ ]wish you were here
[ ]because
[ ]Internally Bleeding
2005 June:
[ ]Ding dong, knock knock, hoolly hooo!
[ ]day 4
[ ]you know...
[ ]2people
[ ]in hong kong we kill you thwee time befowe you hit the floow.
[ ]why everything sucks...
[ ]se tuer à petit feu...
[ ]bump and shake that deriere..
[ ]batti man..
[ ]Some bitch killed my son with a coat hanger..
[ ]killer tomatoes
[ ]This is the rythm of the night.. the nighhht
[ ]meeeooowww
[ ]Its not easy being cheesy!!
[ ]gen wednesday 5:15 @ Peel SAQ
[ ]Fool of Muchaku - Part II
[ ]IM SO INLOVE!!
[ ]W.e.D..n.E.s...DA.y!
2005 May:
[ ]FINISHED
[ ]quoi le fuck
[ ]Le Weekend.
[ ]ok.. WOOW!!
[ ]this is how we doo
[ ]good luck good luck...
[ ]killing in the name of
[ ]24hrs+ 24hrs
[ ]+24 hours
[ ]so cracked yet so satisfied
[ ]afnsd,gnvowefjqef;
[ ]Smooth Criminal.
[ ]TAKE ME TO THE HOSPITAL
[ ]Nous sommes nos propres sauveurs
[ ]*YYYYYYAWN*
[ ]Fool of Muchaku - Part I
[ ]Life is pretty
[ ]Profound Emotional Paroxysm; Diseases Of The Consciousness
[ ]DON'T BLAME THE DRUGS
[ ]hor
[ ]hmmm
[ ]Help!! Statistics!!
[ ]the under dog's on top
[ ]Hate it or love it!
[ ]Life
[ ]Feelings
[ ]i h8 everything
[ ]aahhhjooobooohhooohooo
[ ]I wish..
2005 April:
[ ]no topic
[ ]HOOOOO.MYGAWD!
[ ]je vais pas a GMS
[ ]iM sO wIkKeD cOoL!!
[ ]more work journals
[ ]My super duper Deviantart Page
[ ].BlOw Me.
[ ]*proot*
[ ]Peace.
[ ]why?!!!!!!!work?!!!!
[ ]sick
[ ]ooouuuccchhhhh
[ ]Birthday!
[ ]Men Confese, the fragrance they felt hard for...
[ ]Laundry day!
[ ]i had a ferry ferry good nite on friday apr 15th.
[ ]today is tuesday
[ ]Flag Carrier
[ ]Everyday
[ ]The Day After
[ ]Sick
[ ]Today
[ ]Playlist April week 2, 2005
[ ]crap
[ ]Define: "Bleh"
[ ]L'hypocrisie...
[ ]Renewed
[ ]Tomorrow is my 20th!
[ ]Reflections
[ ]Sometimes
[ ]well..
[ ]Damn me! Late night zombie thoughts.
[ ]arg.
[ ]societys shit chosen by god discrace the rest
[ ]Thug Life...How the PS2 brought out that gangsta in me Part.1
[ ]Positive Encouragment.
[ ]*Atchou!*
[ ]Playlist for April 1st-3rd , 2005
[ ]For Gen.
2005 March:
[ ]Spring into summer!
[ ]tonight is..Long Island Fest. 2005
[ ]Kali
[ ]Its a beautiful wednesday *sings*
[ ]Spring
[ ]Somber
[ ]Chocolate
[ ]thurs Mar 17th
2005 February:
[ ]People. Raves. Death. Badly structured, full of ideas.
[ ]teh superbowl!!
[ ]Cities of the Dead
[ ]Blood Magic (A Prelude to Slytherin Solidarity)
[ ]The Day I Tried to Live
[ ]Slytherin Solidarity: Canto V - One for the Razorbacks (Part II)
[ ]Slytherin Solidarity: Canto V - One for the Razorbacks (Part I)
[ ]poem part 2
[ ]poem part 1
[ ]D.I.A.
2005 January:
[ ]20 minutes!
[ ]up an atom
[ ]ARGH!
[ ]Post numero duos
[ ]I get a journal!
[ ]new
[ ]trgfshndfg
[ ]Slytherin Solidarity: Canto IV - Red Moon Rising (Part II)
[ ]Slytherin Solidarity: Canto IV - Red Moon Rising (Part I)
Title:Reflections
Posted On:2005-04-10 00:00:00
Posted By:» daFTWin
What a totally fucked up weekend.
Friday night was a fucking blast, it was also a real eye opener.
What am I doing? Why am I so naive and why can't I move on.
Why do I have to care so much.
Well, I got a look at myself from someone elses perspective and im happy I did. Im happy for the first time in so very long. but I can't stop crying, because its not fair.
I shouldn't be so sad because of someones incapability to feel.
You know those type of people you spend so much time just trying to get them to understand your point of view, you could drive yourself crazy over? No matter how many times you say it, no matter how many diferent ways you try, you just never ever ever get through, you just end up making things so un believebly bad, that all you can do is just turn and walk away.
As you start to leave everything behind, you start to realize everything you're giving up, and you just can't decide which is the right choice? Well thats where I am, im not sure what im letting go of, but it hurts, and it hurts a lot.

One thing I know is that its working, I already find myself forgetting and caring less and less. Things that should bother me dont. And the things that do bother me are all relative in the sence that im sensitive and careless pricks will always be there to knock others down. But I am strong and I believe that things only affect us as much as we let them, and from now on, all the things that have prevented me from being the person I trully am, and all these bad emotions that I have let control my life for so long are gone. When I was uploading some baby pictures I couldnt stop looking at one and thinking over and over again "thats me, a pure and innocent soul, untouched and unharmed by all the harms this world will put her through".....but thats me, a kind and gentle and wonderful soul that will live her life to the fullest and enjoy the good times, laugh and cry at the bad times, and who will always try her hardest to provide for herself and for those who are worthy.