|Posted On:||2005-04-06 00:00:00|
Weird colors keep adding themselves to my profile colors and they dont go at all, its like a dark royal blue??
And I also noticed theres no option to set cookies the new way of logging in. Oh well.
I'm so happy I saw pascale today :) It had been waay too long, and I saw yasmine, but she's been more of a daily deelight recently and i'm loving it :D
I came home and worked on finishing my costume for nostalgia.. im almost done, but the chances of jenny being my twin arent looking so good.
I feel so anxious for this event, and like im giving myself stress I clearly dont need. I could sleep all day and aperantly it wouldnt change anything... well, thats nice to finally know. Look's like i'm sleeping in tomorrow. It is pretty late already.
My last entry was so emtion filled I had tears comming down my cheeks[way to be guay katie!] The worst part about it is, I have no idea how to distance myself from the all the people I should be. I've done it before but I was, in the most part, heavily sedated and it just came to a point where I had already cut myself off from some of these people that once I came back from "vacation" I had already found tons of other things to preocupy myself with, leaving me no time to miss and think about them. I want that again, just without getting heavily sedated.. and the even worse part is that theres no way it can be fixed. Not a single way.
Sometimes I just crave a guy, not to get down and dirty with, although thats always an added bonus, but someone to take care of me, and who I could take care of, someone so I could preocupy myself with, and we could lose ourselves in each other.
I think I miss being inlove.
I'd like a guy who helps get rid of all my problems instead of adding to them, and a guy who is proud of me.
Until my ideal man comes along, I'll just have to find other ways of preocupying myself, and work on improving myself, so that when he does come, I can be the best thing in his world.