Made: ctrl friday (SICK DnB all night)
Made: Under pressure sat, (more sick DnB and livestep)
Made: Paid this morning.
Made: Things are looking up on all fronts.

Good luck friend *hug*

+1

I seen it sparklz, I was merely enforcing the fact reddit crushes stumbleddoohickeythingy

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But, I was just trying to return your wallet man :( why the hate....

Spur of the moment thing. steak dinner, dessert, drinks all night after. Right now, arcade games :P

Then we sign up for CC using his ID, buy all the expensive shit we want.

Then we return said wallet (obviously claiming a finders reward) for being such good citizens, without them ever knowing you just raped their identity and charged up 30k worth of shit to their name.

You in?

Thanks, off to play some arcade games now. Just found this wallet...

So be it. Why would I be willing to go for less. So I can feel superior? What's the point. As much as being lonely sucks. Wanting to facepalm everytime you talk to your partner would be worse would it not? It is in my eyes. But I could very well be wrong. Maybe I have a lofty idea of what a relationship means to me. I admit I could be completely off center and fucked. But this is how I feel very deeply down inside.

Maybe this is something I have to learn. I've been married since I was 19 to 31 when I got separated. She was the 3rd girl I've ever been with. So a lot of this is me trying to come up with ways to figure this shit out and move forward. Seems like tho I'm going backwards *shrug*

And I admit, I do filter people too quickly, I have all my life, due to situations I grew up in I've felt I've had too.

Talking to you pretty much made me realize once again I'm placing what I want on a high pedestal that no human can possibly reach.

I posted it online and kept talking to you (both) because like you said. I don't have many people who talk about this stuff openly or honestly. I'm not ashamed to discuss it openly on a forum. I don't consider it that personal imo (personal yes, but not hush hush private personal).

You mean I'm wanting a younger girl? No not by far. 24+ is really only the age of people I mostly hang out with. Younger than that I find it hard to related and honestly wouldn't fuck them, let alone date them. 24 being the min I would consider pending like you said maturity, etc.

I'm simply wanting someone who gets me, likes me for me (faults and all). And who I feel compelled to be with myself and more importantly do things with (no not sex I mean go out be active).

And more so someone who inspires me to be better. Ultimately this is what I'm looking for. Anything else in my eyes is a waste of time and energy. If it means being alone, I'd rather be alone then with someone I feel superior too.

exponential

Well put.

And this is one of the things that I need to personally work on. in the 34 years I've been alive. I've never felt comfortable with someone yet. I've got tons of friends, we could be hanging out have a great time. I still feel utterly alone. I've been this way my entire life.

Maybe it's time to actually see a Dr. about it. I'm not sure. I just know it's starting to get harder to deal with feeling this way. For me the act of going out some night to see friends, takes day or 2 of getting ready. Working on the nerve and energy. And for a day after I'm exhausted. Part of being an introvert I'm told/and read (not blaming something, just repeating what I've read and had people tell me).

NP on the reply, much better than a 1 line "suck it up" msg lol

That's the plan. So far it's not working out too well. I've found a lot of crazy, batshit insane, and really really really REALLY broken.

<rant>
I'm by no means perfect, but seriously if your over 23 and not working fulltime or going to school. What in the fuck is wrong with you. So tired of immaturity and bullshit.</rant>

I guess shit like this is what makes finding the right one worth it.

And dating would be 1 step above my current ability to befriend anyone on the planet.

It can be slow, for viewing stuff in other countries use web proxies. These are much quicker and usually hide you enough.

Tor thru irc? Why are you part of anonymous or some cladestine ninja squad of hackers? (ps: if you were you'd have your own network to use lol).

That was my issues with tor.

Made: it's a good day, got my show tonight, ctrl tomorrow, under pressure sunday.
Ruined: girls

Booka Shade - Solo City

Soup

I know. I'm just being nosey :P~

Nope

Yes, my kind.

When I lived in Washington D.C (well in the suburbs) for me to go to a decent store for clothing/shoes was a good 2 hour trip. So I ended up doing most of my shopping online [ www.drjays.com ] for example).

I even used to do online grocery shopping in the US.

Still buy a LOT of my clothing online. I can pay $60 for a pair of ecko jeans in a store here. Or buy them online for $10 with 10x the selection.

Online? Fuck local stores and their shitty selections.

*sigh* Another of my kind killed senselessly.

Free backrubs w/happy endings?

Yup haven't hit one that justifies it yet.

Hehehehe :)

flower

How can verhell be awesome?

How u doin? badabing badahboom.

He's goth it's what they do Nathan. *ducks*

lol +1

Now now young man.

You seem very angry Mr. Slugbait. Like general anger your just spraying left and right as well as a dash of preachy.

Something you wanna talk about?

I don't disregard your message, But you just seem exceptionally angry.

Done and done.

Total science, g-lok, optiv, mc tali, fawk list goes on and on.. lol

harder tho?

Uhhh ok.

Fuck nice lineups.

32nd

1st

Duck!

blah :(