some people hear one story and others hear another...

seems that's how it works for certain circles

meth makes you relaxed at the same time as giving you a boost, and i think that's why it's second

only drug i can't just walk away from

when one of my friends is starving because of someone elses "mistake"

the health of those i care about

:O i can't believe you Fred!

uhhh but thanks for conspiring to get me to go

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

MADE: holding alexis and groovin to erikah badhu
made: seeing everyone over at seb and val's
made: finally got my liam hug... and yummy candy to boot!! yummm
made: actually made the appointment, however late and lost i was

ruined: these questions for my mother - SHUT UUUUUPPPPPP!
ruined: soooo little sleep.... and i think my stomach's exploding while my heart is imploding... yay
ruined: can't eat, gotta sleep, didn't stay for supper when there was a roomful of happy people, which is like a dream come true - WAH!

you people are making me fat. ter.

sorry... i was worried... i'll shut up

!oh fuck i forgot you can't go back and edit! shit

working on my biceps... i'm ripped!

oooohhhhhhh ok... thanks! dumb brain... it's completely fried and needs a little help most times...

bo?

bahaha sam you remind me of me... that may be scary but hey... can't sit still to watch a 5 minute TV show... goddam this pot of tea! i'm quitting this stuff... i swear i am... well maybe not camomile... which is what i'm drinking now... i hope i sleep soon...

but one thing - i do not know how to cook :(

ravewave is really getting the mileage tonight...
yeah dmsn won't even work for me...
what's this isketch?

(kinda in response to toby's post)

sorry.

and yeah i can relate to some of what toby said... like people have been getting me to be selfish cuz they say it's the only way i'm going to survive... and since i nearly have killed myself for people then yeah i'll play it their way for a bit i guess. then again death is better then watching this fuckin shit go down.

but i know i'm way too selfish anyway and everyone hates me for it. i'm with them on that.

and one more thing, i'm supposedly one of those people who has no grey, just white and black. bah. but you have to keep searching for that middle ground... hang in there...?

but lately i'm losing my emotions. i am losing touch with the world... retreating inward. goodbye.

where are the mullets?

hahaha... can it be we all share a certain level of lame?

hey billy... can i txt msg you? msg me with details

i'm with liam and gordo...

it's all art, fully appreciable and expressive

to elixereleven- i apologize. i could not nor can i readily see exactly who you were talking to.

i'm too fat.

yeah i know it just sucks that someone would cause someone else so much pain:(

guess i'm just not in a mood to laugh

being on time for rehab... hope i don't freak out beforehand...

errrr can't sleep

:( i don't

ORGASM!

settle down there lee... woo!

what somekid said.

how can i get on a greyhound bus for free?

the fact that trying to think of something happy makes me slightly sad...
and all other emotions seem to be leaving me at a rapid pace...
how i keep treating people like shit, cuz i feel so alone and worthless i don't even feel good enough to touch their world anymore

hats, bracelets, roses, the colour pink, feeling accepted, feeling supported, skipping ropes, cleanliness, muscles, music, mindcandy....

seeing people smile real smiles

the smell of this rose...

where is my mind?

^i hear ya sarah... my problem right now

being such a nervous wreck i'm not going to get any sleep before rehab... and im' burning up... is this another fever? WOOPDEEDOO!

my muscles hurting sooo much

nah that's just the way the world works...
it's all in the marketing.

and carlos, you know me...

and i totally see how smoking ice is more addictive then shooting it.

ohhh man you just noticed? welcome to my world

but it's all bunk.

and i'm a shithead.

aww

made: kafwin making me into a mock-her
made: phone tag may be at an end with Lee

ruined: no energy... this feeling
ruined: nerves... eating too much

sex

there was a debate in this thread?

well you seem to hate me so... fuck you? you will not be dragging me to rehab because i'm going there myself. goodbye.

this thread makes me so sad

i hope something POSITIVE can be done soon... good luck

*^_^*

courtney love REEEAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLYYY looks like a crackhore

gwen stefani's niece is adorable, i concur 9and we have the same shoes..hmmm)

go andre 3000!!!...is that a fellow injun i see?

and as always, Pharrell's pretty fine

match skin tone!!!

and sharon - HAHAHAHIHIHIHIHI!

man that's some shitty iv work... :(

i'ma go to therapy and hope you people can stop talking about highs and horse.

someone massage me i'm bored

woah...

oh look julian's back online and he's posting!