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Darkness creeping in- deadly nightshade memories resurface after spanning several grassroot utopias, now the happy human faces are melting and twisted. Eyes removed from sockets are empty-blind, crying now dead- now decayed organic matter that once covered the visionary walls of these pits. Time has stopped and the somatic effects of aging race to the finish line…withering, paling, and shrinking in on myself- I am ghost faced and bare boned and haunting my karass, my corolla, as soon as last breath escapes. Finally cut from the warm ambience of earthy connection I am instantaneously consumed by the thrashing panic of humanity's insanity. Desperate junkie eventually grows heavy grows mouth foaming hysterical and urgent and crazed. I am sickly alien body crowned Golgotha- dusty and hollow and gone.
Little girl faded memory waves at tortured-soul me, and I collapse defeated by myself.
Tonight- suicide, lying down in coffin bed; now is gone and happy humans are null, void, meaningless enameled eerie glowing fossils. Never again- only in diseased memory.