LURKING...

I would love to put my dirty fingers on this!

Is it me or most of what happening here is nothin else but dirty laundry?

In fact, i don't have anything to say...

Nice! Just banned myself...

This only this bothering me at the moment, is i no longer have bacon...:(
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...btw, i mix with surgical precision.

Lol

Sounds nice to my ears!

Cool! It will be after my first payday.

He said butt...


NICE!

That is right!

Ruined: im about call my sister a vegetable.

Ruined : i sooo god damn fucken tired of junkys.
From a backstabing borderline con that was my ex, a fucken asshole ex roomate that was Taking out his anger on me and my little that me and my roommate are kicking out because she doesn't do nothing to help her self.

I actually skip meals to the point of being week or only eat pasta with salt to point i feel like puking so she can eat.

So im sacrificing my health and walking a extra 20 km to get lied about alot of thing.

Man i wish i had the money i had 13 month ago.

Im older then time it self.

I bet she would be the one boning you na.

I would do Paris Hilton handbag and start my record label.

I wish it would be this easy.

I vote for screwhead the hotest!

Thank!!!

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a good 24 hour of alone time.
i could't ask for more!

NICE!!!!!

Other reason i hated in my life...

A sexual predator is as-swell a spycolagical predator.
He rips you a part and make you feel responsible for it.  He might be a well respected person and this will make every thing harder to expose him.
Your might even be blame for destroying the family.  I witness so much crap in my family that I no longer talk to any of them.

From my own experience. 
Sexual abuse will kill a part you.
Even an adult will be broken to piece.

For a kid is even worse.  Just imagine experiencing something that 
you don't really understand. After the abuse, you feel like a whore, self hatred, fear, you will be alienated by your surrounding( school and home ).

Most kids won't understand you and will pick on you.  In fact, most people judge thing they dont know about.
So the kid with that experience might be labeled as a retard and cast off from every body.

Being labeled as a retard, you will be beat up for no reason by the other kid and it will feed your own insecurity. This insecurity will lead you to more hatred, self hatred & ect. 

So getting abuse at a young age might fallow you all your life. You will do bad choice that remind of your        hellish childhood. There is a bigger chence that you'll be victim of psycological predator and relive the alienation over and over until you seek help.

So every time that somebody play games with my mind, i relive this hell!

This is my therapeutic moment.

And this is my reason that i never go to the stripper.
There a big number of people in the sex industry (stripper, hookers and ext) that have this hellish childhood.
They only validate themselves by there body.  They consider themselves as sex object and escape this hell by consuming drugs or alcohol.

don't you call him a clover damn it!

Glovers?

where is the like button?

ableton + other

come is such a big word.

cum

This

and




talk about that!!!
In the last year, i got really hurt by 2 peoples. i hated them to the point of wanting them to die from a drug "O.D." .

But the thing is, i was hurting myself.
i was not eating much, my sleeping pattern was a complete mess and at some point, my hart was physically hurting.

so in fact, my hatred was destroying me. i really got to be careful of choosing to let in my life.
my grudge is a greater danger to myself then the peoples that hurt me.

And yeah, i do have a habit of cutting myself from the people that love me because i don't see
thing clearly.

!!!

No hardcore in Mtl?

In fact, we got a good number of great hardcore dj and producer over here.

But there is not much event going on.

There deadNĀ for the hardcore head, there is NTK and hardtime production for the free party spirite.

For the last 2 year from spring to fall, OCDJ was home for all bigbass and distorted weckidness.
Might as well check out laf-o b-day at saphir this Tuesday and as well DTO and a of hardtime dj at the same place tursday.

My bad.

I miss written wallet.

It

Not

Cool


It


Boring

And

I'm

Boring

Ahh! If I can finish this year alive, I'm going to eat a tako buffet

Last year, i tried to be nice & cool.

Being helpful will only burn you out.

Not the first time that I get called asshole and you know what?

After being steps on my back so many time to the point that every god-DANM bones in my body hurt.
And the minute i put my feet on the ground and defend myself, I'm a asshole.

Maybe being a asshole is not such a bad thing.

The only thing that i need to tell to myself is, you chose your friend.  Because when you don't have much of a self-esteem, the only people you attract will be a hand full of psychological predator.
Because they can smell you from far away.

And lilo, for the girl that your protecting...

I do have a right to hate her and I do have a hell of a good reason to hate her. 

So go on protect, help & shelter her.

I may suggest that you hold on to your walled when you sleep...

That would be good in my explosion collection that contain shot from a dozain of diferrent guns.

Hell! I just had ideal.

I think am going to create a drumloop made with pipebomb explosion.

If you ain't gonna say nothing consistent or real, why don't you shut up already.

Nothin else but horse shit that come out your mouth.

HATER?

WHERE?

I got so much HATE pumping in my vain and need to get some of it out.

Surching a place to live.

I'm a dj, gamer, skater and love photoshoping.

I smoke
Don't drink much
Don't want to live in a house of debauchery.
On worker insurance but looking for a job.

I started a new track but i might be stuck getting new head phone, I can't find then.

- Haven't found my thing yet.

This might be one my so many fucken ruined: think I lost my 1000gig harddrive with all my life works and i might got stolen my sony mdr 750hd.