2006 November:

inspiration vs motivation

I am inspired through many events. I am inspired as the wind whispers through the trees. I am inspired by the beauty of nature. The silver lining of the grey clouds. I am inspired by words of wisdom of those before me. Great thoughts electrify through my grey matter along each synapse. I am inspired by my lover, and friends. I am inspired by colors that reflect from the light. I am inspired by little miracles such as my cat. I am inspired by the whistle of the bus driver. I am inspired by the breath of fresh air that fills my aveolies. I am inspired by the devine guidance of my emotions. I am inspired by direct and indirect contact with my surroundings...

However I lack motivation to enlighten my inspirations. I am enabled to induce the outcome. I am unabled to be aroused easily to take action towards my goals. This leaves me frustrated lately because I have no direction nor incentive to accomplish anything. I fear that this phase will last forever...