Originally Posted By ALIENZED
hey!! my girlfriend might see that.

Originally Posted By KUZUTETSU

Corrupted: I believe that my twisted ways, thoughts, and career started when I was a young boy… I would look through my Mom's Sears Catalog. I would go to the back and check out all of the women in their bras and underwear and get all excited. This was the beginning of my twisted mind... and this is slightly embarrassing! LOL

As a teen… I would watch Club MTV after school. I would stare at the tv screen… waiting for a glimpse up the skirt of one of those hot female dancers wearing gogo boots, mini skirts, and flailing her hair around as her body gyrated sexily to the beat of the music. If Club MTV was not on… then hopefully the MTV Spring Break shows were on… with all of those bikini glad college sluts doing dumb shit! I was in heaven!!!

During high school… I knew this girl that was over 18… for $10 bucks… she would go into the local IGA store and buy me a porn magazine. Our deal was that she got to keep the change. She was making $7 on this deal… LOL! All so I could ride my bike home with a brown bagged porn magazine… run downstairs… flip through it… and choke my chicken to girls in pig-tails and white ruffled socks… what was I becoming???

Against my Dad's will… I started putting bikini pullouts and posters on my bedroom wall. Once my walls started to fill up… I would sneak a magazine pullout of an extra risky shot… you know… like just a thonged ass. I would mix it in with all of the other pictures and posters thinking that my Dad would never see it right… LOL!

Marriage: After graduating high school I went into the Army. Even in my barracks room… I filled the walls with legs and ass! I remember being the only dood in the barracks with a huge Sony TV and showing the guys Max Hardcore videos on it... on the weekends the barracks hallways were filled with the sounds of girls taking cock down their throats and spitting all over themselves... hehehe

Looking back... I imagine that some of those guys thought I was sick... and that some of them are probably corrupted now... I guess I was already doing my job back then... hehehe

After 6 years in the Army, and my first failed marriage… I returned to civilian life. I think I was divorced from my first wife for less than a year… and on my way out of the Army and… I hooked up with an 18 year old Hungarian girl.

Uh… what do you do when you have an 18 year old girl from Hungary living with you??? Get married before they deport her right! Ok… so now I am married again… I am 22… she is 18. We return to Illinois and I get a job as a Letter Carrier for the U.S. Post Office and she starts working at Subway.

Everything is just fine… until I get my first computer… what do I do with my first computer… download porn all night long!!!

Back to collecting... after a few weeks and months... I had stacks and stacks of floppy discs filled up with porn. Surfing on a 56k dial up modem... saving porn pics... fucking fun! It did suck though... to download one picture would take a minute or more... but whatever... this was worth it... LMAO!!!

My collection of porn on floppy discs was getting overwhelming. I was thinking to myself... you just keep saving shit... more new shit... more new shit... you never go back and look at the old stuff. Why am I collecting all of this stuff???

My second marriage was doomed from the beginning… we had nothing in common… she was into cooking… and I have no idea what else… and I was into photos, legs and ass, and making money.
Collecting: As a boy I collected baseball cards. I could not stand to NOT HAVE the entire set of cards for a particular year… I would trade, buy, and collect until I had a full set.

As a teen I recorded and collected videos of girls dancing… CLUB MTV baby… Also as a teen I collected porn magazines and pictures. As soon as I got a decent collection though… my Dad would throw the shit away.

As a young man… during my Army years… I started collecting Playboy Magazines, Centerfolds, and Playboy's Collectors Cards and... PORNO TAPES!

I don't think that my over enthusiastic hobbies of collecting Playboy stuff and porn pictures excited my wife very much… but then again… she was not all that exciting either. And I needed sexual excitement! That is what I was born for… most of my brains are in my dick… I think… :)

Searching for Playboy autographed cards on the Internet took me to Glamourcon's website. The event was in Chicago which was only a 2 hour drive for me... I had to go... I could pay past centerfolds a few bucks and get them to sign my centerfold...

After attending my first Glamourcon... I was so intrigued by the whole thing... the girls, the photography, the industry... but I had no idea how to get into it... so I just kept slaving for the government delivering letters.

Fix The Marriage???: Still downloading porn pics... getting no sleep... collecting Playboy cards and autographs, working as a Letter Carrier for the post office... and being married for sex was starting to feel shitty. I needed something new... I needed to find something in common with my wife... I needed to let this porn infatuation go and do something with my wife.

I got a used Nikon film SLR camera and started taking pics of my wife. She would get all made up and I would prop every fucking lamp in the house up against a chair towards her face and try to take some kind of "well lit" artistic photos.

The only real effect propping these lamps up in my wife's face and taking tons of time changing camera settings was a bunch of crappy pictures and that she QUIT posing for me... LMAO! The other drawback was developing the film… that shit costs money!!!

I am not claiming to be perfect... but I WAS trying to find something in common with my wife. Whatever... I needed to find myself and what I was good at. I did not want to work at the Post Office the rest of my life.
The Candid Scene: After collecting shit-fuck-loads of porn pics… and getting bored with Playboy… as they were beginning to stop production of the cards… I stumbled upon a new scene on the Internet. It was the Candid Scene. Back in 2000 Digital cameras were getting smaller and smaller and more affordable. Guys would go out to malls, beaches, the streets and take pictures of hotties. Girls in jeans, shorts, skirts, upskirts, down-blouse, VPL (visible panty line)… fuck… the list goes on. I was INTRIGUED!

The porn was getting boring… pussy lips that looked like a butterfly that got smacked down by a Mac truck were not doing it for me any more… gaping assholes with cum dripping from them were not working… bleach blondes with big ass fake tits were never working for me… but these candid shots were just like… REAL!

I hooked up with two Internet doods… Atomic Frog from [ [ TeenPlanet.org ] ] and ANT who at that time ran a site call [ [ AlmostNudeTeens.com ] ] We ran a site called [ [ TeenPlanetCandid.com ] ] Each of us a third owner. Atomic Frog had the traffic, ANT had the webmaster skills, and I had the candid shooting skills.

Risk #1: "Taking risk is what separates the successful from the non successful." - Rush Limbaugh

I took a huge risk… I went to the bank and took out a $2500 personal loan. I bought the Canon Digital Elf and a Sony DVC video camera. I needed something to take candids with.

I went to a few nightclubs on New Years Eve and acted like I was "part of the DJ's Crew" so literally all of the girls dancing just let me film them. I went to beaches and the streets and malls of Chicago and shot unsuspecting chicks.

After coming home and checking out my work… I was getting frustrated. I could have gotten some really good shots… but they were blurry. So what did I do next… I started shooting with flash. I would walk up behind a girl at a checkout counter and shoot two upskirt shots... firing off a flash each time. I had balls of steel!

Now I had to post my shit… [ [ NNBoards.com ] ] (which I eventually bought) was my stomping grounds. I needed a name though…

The Name: I still to this day do not know what I should know about cameras. I mean… I can definitely get by… and shoot some really good stuff. But if you handed me a manual camera and asked me to shoot a no flash with limited lighting… I just may take a shitfuck picture for you… LOL.

I did read about cameras in an effort to become better. But my memory is not very good at all. The one thing that I never forgot though… was that when shooting under decent light… like the sun for instance… and you want to get rid of those pesky shadows under your subjects eyes and nose… you force the flash… and this is called a fill flash. You are filling in the shadow areas with flash lighting.

Everyone wants to or at least at this time period… wanted to be anonymous… so what a great www name for me right… phil-flash was born.

So now phil-flash was posting his candid pervert pictures on NNBoards… and the feedback quite frankly… the following I gained and the feedback they gave me... GAVE me one hell of an ego.

Risk #2: I am still working as a Letter Carrier, on the weekends I am out shooting candids somewhere and posting them to [ [ TeenPlanetCandid.com ] ] my wife is watching TV and learning English. My new hobby… shooting candids was taking over.

I started to make over $500 a week with the candid site… I had a following on the internet… I felt appreciated by my fans… and the exhilaration and excitement of shooting candids gave me a rush from hell. It was like a drug… and addiction. The power you felt as you snapped a pic of a girl… and she couldn't do a fucking thing about it was overwhelming. I was a serial picture rapist. LOL

You know those guys that talk about hunting… and you just can't figure out what is so exciting about going out into the woods for an entire day… smelling like deer piss… and sitting there all day… but when that deer walks into their view… everything is now worth it… well I can now relate to hunters… because when you find a hottie wearing something hot enough to take pics of… your heart starts to race… you block out everything… matter of fact… I don't even think that I hear shit… I just do it… and get the fuck out… and it felt goooooood!

The candid shit started to get too risky. I went to jail in Chicago for taking upskirts… my wife had to come get me out and it was a scary situation.

Luckily I was making good money with the candid site and I was able to get off with a good lawyer and the fact that the girl I took upskirt pics of never showed up to court. They needed to prove that I did not have consent to take the pics… LOL No girl… no proof!

That fucking female prosecutor's face turned red when she realized that she needed the girl to prove that there was no consent and the judge dismissed the case… hahahaha BITCH!

Anyway… I did not like that heat and I needed a new thing. My co workers at the Post Office were all old, limping, leather-faced, and hating life. I had 37 years until I was able to retire from the Post Office… and I just could not see myself being tied to that for the rest of my life.

My Dad always told me... go to college... get a good job with benefits to support your family... and you will be set. But this was not good enough for me... I did not want to work for the man the rest of my life.

While delivering mail... I would listen to my portable radio. I started listening to Rush Limbaugh... almost everything he said… I agreed with. It just all made sense... Rush would always talk about risk and success.

As I said above… he would say that what separated the successful from the non-successful was risk.

I quit the good paying, good benefit, government job… and decided to start non nude websites featuring amateur girls!

I was in shock, my wife was in shock, my parents were in shock, hell my supervisor at the Post Office was in shock! All I or probably anyone ever wants for that matter… is some GODAM SUPPORT!

Not even my wife supported me… she called me stupid for quitting the Post Office!

My First Website: (the beginning of MeganQt's story) One day before I quit the Post Office… while sorting mail before my route… this girl came in and started talking to her Dad. Her voice was cute… which caught my attention.

I looked over and all I could see was this nice ass packed into a pair of skin tight Baby Phat Jeans, I was like… dammit! If I could only get away with shooting candids here in the Post Office!

I was kind of a buddie to her Dad... we joked around a lot and I knew him pretty well. But I did not know that he had an 18 year old hottie for a daughter :)

I ended up taking Megan's senior pictures… they were awesome… she was game to get into a river wearing jeans and take some "hotter than normal" senior pictures. She liked getting her pics taken and I could tell.

After shooting Megan's senior pictures... I asked her to do some practice shoots (This is when I thank my ex-wife for not allowing me to take pictures of her anylonger). Megan was willing to trade her time for a set of the pics… I mean what 18 year old girl would not want hot, cute, and slightly sexy pics of herself to give to her boyfriend right?

We shot about three times at the state park… and finally I asked her if she wanted to do a Non Nude website. She kind of freaked on me… everything went to an uncomfortable mood. She said she would have to think about it.

Two weeks went by and I asked her Dad one last time only this time I offered Megan $500 for the first shoot… the next day at work he told me that she said ok… but he (her Dad) had to go with us on the first shoot.

After the first shoot with Megan… I sent ANT the pictures and he designed her first tour. I paid Visa $750 and got my site approved. [ [ MeganQt.com ] ] started off really slow. Megan and I split the site 50/50. We were each making $40 a week. Keep in mind that back then… the industry was charging $10 to $15 to signup.

Megan was working at Dairy Queen and still going to school. She was making about $80 a week at that job. My goal was to make her more than that and get her more interested in her site and being sexier. The money kept going up the more I worked on her site and content. Eventually she started making $100/week, then $150, then $200, and all the way up to almost $2000 a fucking week. You can see the rise in her income in her content… just go through it and you will see how she poses as the money keeps growing.
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The Corporation: With my first solo girl site under my wings… I wanted more. I began looking for my next model. I searched [ [ OneModelPlace.com ] ] for local models… preferably a blonde (that would pose in a thong) because I had heard that they sell better than brunettes.

I found a girl named Tiffany from the suburbs of Chicago. Her profile showed her wearing a thong and she looked pretty cute. I sent her an email… and her boyfriend called me within 30 minutes. They were VERY interested.

Two days later Tiffany was in my family room, half naked, taking naughty pictures while her boyfriend perved her out with my video camera. that dood was zooming in and out on every part of her body… LOL

TiffanyTeen was launched soon after that and then came NextDoorNikki. She was a friend of Tiffany's from high school… she contacted me, came down for dinner with her boyfriend, and before they went home LATE that night I had 10 sets of Nikki in all kinds of naughty no nude poses :)

With the addition of TiffanyTeen and NextDoorNikki… my company took off. I had more money than I ever dreamed of. I needed to incorporate and save money on taxes and all of that Jazz. My wife and I formed phil-flash media inc. I did it all lower case on purpose… I did not like the name phil-flash capitalized.

I started more sites… [ [ PrincessBlueyez.com ] ] [ [ SeannaTeen.com ] ] Then I bought [ [ Brandys-Box.com ] ] from her, I started [ [ Meredith18.com ] ] I bought [ [ KrissyLove.com ] ] I started [ [ TaylorTwins.com ] ] [ [ BrattyBrittany.com ] ] [ [ AnnasAssets.com ] ] [ [ Megan-Summers.com ] ] [ [ KendallBlaze.com ] ] and [ [ DreamOfDani.com ] ]

How in the hell do I manage all of these models, shoot their content, process the content, and update the sites??? I got an office and filled it with 9 employees. A coder, several content and graphics guys, a model manager, and a video guy. Expenses started coming out the yahoo… office rent, payroll, office electric bill ($500 plus a month), taxes, model pay, travel expenses… etc.

At this point… I HATED my job. I was now an owner and manager of a big ass corporation.

The Collapse: The economy collapsed in 2006-2008, my marriage collapsed, my finances collapsed (due to the chief financial officer of my corporation… AKA: my wife)… and with all of that… I was forced to make tough decisions and start letting my office employees go. All the while going through a divorce. Then once all of the office employees were let go… I had an office lease to negotiate out of… pay off all of the outstanding bills… and then… now that I have my hands around the finances… I had to let models go as well.

The reason I needed to let the models go is that I decided that I did not want to manage them any longer… nor did I have the time or recourses to shoot their content, process it, and update the sites.

So basically everything I had worked 8 years plus for… was crumbling at my feet. I am not going to cry about it… I actually believe that the collapse of EVERYTHING… to be one of the best things that happened to me in a long time.

A New Beginning: The collapse of everything gave me a new start. I dissolved the corporation, I stopped all of the profuse bleeding of my bank accounts, I no longer had obligations to any models or employees, my expenses shrunk down to literally nothing, my shoot house was sold, my home was sold, my now ex-wife was paid her lump sum, my divorce is settled and final.

The only obligations I had now... were to get reorganized and settled SOMEWHERE, start shooting hot choices for FDAU [ [ University.com ] ] and [ [ phil-flash.com ] ] and continue to update those two sites and start saving my fucking money.

However… there was one key obligation I did not mention above. I had a decision to make. I had purchased [ [ DawnAvril.com ] ] a year earlier and needed to decide if I was going to try and get her shooting again for her site and running it or not.

UM… THAT DECISION TOOK A WHOLE millisecond. Hell… I was on a plane to go shoot Dawn in Florida before my ex-wife had even left Illinois for Hungary.

Dawn was difficult to get ahold of and set up a photo shoot. She had a lot going on in her life as well. (don't we all right)

Finally... I forced the issue... I called her up and said... I am coming down on Dec. 12, 2008 to do a shoot... can you be available? She said yes... but she has to work. It's a Friday night and missing work on a Friday night would hurt her financially. She asked me if I wanted to go to her work with her that night... and do the photo shoot on Saturday. I was like... um... see DawnAvril strip at a strip club... uh... yeah I will go with you to work.

Several drinks, a couple of lap dances, a DawnAvril tit in my mouth during a lap dance... and about 500 bucks later… it was nearing 4AM… closing time!

Dawn drove to my hotel... I was lit the fuck up... and Dawn was a little lit herself... she shouldn't have been driving... whatever... I was like... um... we should probably discuss our shoot tomorrow... do you want to come into my room and talk about it???

Dawn returned home at 7am or so... with my cum in her panties, sexed hair, and a big fucking smile on her face :) hehehe

Shortly after this… I moved to Florida... I am living with and very much in love with Dawn! I am shooting Dawn's content, shooting content for [ [ phil-flash.com ] ] and [ [ FDAUUniversity.com ] ] spending more time with my kids than most Dad's that live at home with their kids do, and Njoying the fuck out of life...

I am not bragging here people... I am telling my story... in hopes of inspiring at least one of you... to take a risk and Njoy life a little more... hard work pays off.

The Secret: the secret AND lesson I have learned... is this... positive energy... and an outlook... will eventually build a nice little yellow brick road to your endgame.

If your endgame is a $300,000.00 home... and you keep seeing it in your head... you will (accidentally and subconsiously) make choices and decisions that will get you to that goal... just do it!

I have always wanted a rock n' roll chick, who was a sex maniac like me, who was fun, who was smart, who had shit in common with me, and who I could share my personal and work life with AND take naughty pics and videos of her whenever I wanted to... AND... would go to a Megadeth concert with me and rock out like a little rocker slut!

Somehow... someway... after 6 years in the Army, a 3 year Postal career, a 10 year porn career and two marriages... I ended up creating my own yellow brick road to happiness!

I ended up with what I always wanted --> three perfect (and annoying kids) that I love to deth, a career that I love to deth, and the woman of my hopes, dreams, and fantasies that I love to deth... DAWNAVRIL!

here's 2 recent pics of Dawn:

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