Not a day goes by that I don't think about Mike. I cuddle his sweater at night and catch myself thinking about him at the most random moments during the day.

I have had a few really vivid dreams about seeing him and talking to him.

Come back mike...I miss you.

Because Mike played this song every opportunity he had at my place. It was the HyPo crew anthem.

50 Cent - Wanksta

It's 50 a.k.a Ferrari F-50
Break it down
I got a lot of living to do before I die
And I ain't got tyme to waste
Let's make it

You said you a gansta but you neva pop nuttin'
We said you a wanksta and you need to stop frontin'
You ain't a friend of mine,
You ain't no kin of mine,
What makes you think that I wont run up on you with the nine
We do this all tha tyme, right now we on tha grind
So hurry up and copy and go selling nicks and dimes
Shorty she so fyne, I gotta make her mine
A ass like dat gotta be one of a kind
I crush 'em everytime, punch 'em with every line
I'm fuckin with they mind
I make 'em press rewind
They know they can't shine if I'm around the rhyme
Been on parole since 94 cause I commit tha crime
I send you my line, I did it three ta nine
If D's ran up in my crib, you know who droppin dimes

You said you a gangsta
But you neva pop nuttin
We said you a wanksta
And you need to stop frontin'
You go to the dealership
But you neva cop nuttin'
You been hustlin a long tyme
And you ain't got nuttin

Damn Homie, in high school you was tha man, homie
What tha fuck happened to you?
I got tha sickest vendetta when it come to tha chedda
And if you play wit my paper, you gotta meet my berretta
Now shorty think I'ma sweat her, sippin on amoretta
I'm livin once than deada, I know I can do betta
She look good but I know she after my chedda
She tryna get in my pockets, homie and I ain't gonna let her
Be easy, stop tha bullshit, you get your whole crew wet
We in tha club doin' the same ol' two step
Gorilla unit cuz they say we bugged out
Cuz we don't go nowhere without toast we thugged out

Me I'm no mobsta, me I'm no gangsta
Me I'm no hitman, me I'm jus me, me
Me I'm no wanksta, me I'm no acta
But it's me you see on your TV
Cuz I hustle baby, this rap shit is so easy
I'm gettin' what you get for a brick to talk greasy
By any means, partner, I got to eat on these streets
If you play me close, for sure I'm gonna pop my heat
Niggas sayin they goin murd' 50, how?
We ridin 'round with guns the size of Lil Bow Wow
What you know about AK's and AR 15's?
Equipped with night vision, shell catchers and dem things, huh

These words are for you Mike from me and Pat

Ben Harper - Walk Away

Oh no
Here comes that sun again
That means another day
Without you my friend

And it hurts me
To look into the mirror at myself
And it hurts even more
To have to be with somebody else
And it’s so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away

With so many people
To love in my life
Why do I worry
About one

But you put the happy
In my ness
You put the good times
Into my fun
And it’s so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away
And head for the door

We’ve tried the goodbye
So many days
We walk in the same direction
So that we could never stray
They say if you love somebody
Than you have got to set them free
But I would rather be locked to you
Than live in this pain and misery

They say time will
Make all this go away
But it’s time that has taken my tomorrows
And turned them into yesterdays
And once again that rising sun
Is dropping on down
And once again you my friend
Are nowhere to be found
And it’s so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away
And head for the door
You just walk away
Walk away

I was going through old notes from mike. I keep listening to music mike sent me. I miss him so much, and I don't feel the tinniest bit better at all. I just want him to hug me and pick me up like he used to.

"I miss HyPo missions. and being yer wanksta niggah, ice cream and k at 4:30 in the morning.... talking for like hours on sundays running up a mad high phone bill. i looked forword to sundays. it was a reason to be sunday. i really do miss u megan. HyPo Forevah?" - mike aka n-turd

God I miss him...

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry,
Here's to goodbye tommorow's gone and come too soon.

Your time here was abruptly cut short but the MANY times that we had will live on in my memory forever. You were always misunderstood but you were a great friend to me, in Montreal and Toronto. I will miss the random phone calls and hour long conversations. I will keep the sweater you left at my house forever. The only thing that I pray for you is that you find your own Neverland.

Rest well my friend, love you always. Hypo Crew Forever.

Wow. Me and Mike were pretty good friends. I am deeply saddened by this loss.

I have so many memories flowing through my brain trying to remember the little things about him. I guess it's troo that it's the little things you will miss the most. I guess it's also troo that you don't know what you have until it's gone.

Me and Mike shared the best of times and the worst of times. We were the best of friends and then the worst of enemies.

When it came down to it he was ALWAYS there for me and I am angry at myself for not being more understanding with him at times. He considered me one of his best friends and for that I am grateful but at least I know he's in a better place where he won't have to suffer ever again.

Love you Mike. Hypo Crew Forever...

can't do anything with your friends ex's

oh.....i already did that.
-GeN-

hahahaha....shut up loser

-GeN-

sucking a big black penis. mmmm mmmmm

ill be there for sure!

another protein treatment for my hair

curly hair

knowing that seeing a picture of someone chokes you up

starving

how i want to go on vacation with moomoo

to get over the faults of other people's past

getting my stripes in my hair redone

being told im successful

to go to halifax

so many boys, so little time
lol

i miss the mush!

fefe dobson - everything

i just got um so im in my old school adidas pj's

being nervous for thursday
working out again

made: a 5 hour conversation with a long lost friend in halifax on webcam! *heart*

olee- OBVIOUSLY!

allo

"dont know who you are, but i'm with you"

-just for olee

i dont have any cavities. i did on my baby teeth but those all fell out so im all clean. *knock on wood*

not really, maybe a little but nothing out of the ordinary

y boys lie

secret handshakes

aww its nice to see ben is good. even if he is fatter. fat is good.

aww bebe olee! have a wikked day. i know you will.

*secret handshake*

mwah

i havent seen the original either but im gonna see this one on tuesday

i watched a lot of CSI