|Posted On:||2005-04-25 00:00:00|
Noah was supposed to fix up the journals the way I want them, on FRIDAY. Today is sunday and I still don't like them.
Im still very upset at how much of a fool I let someone make me feel. The pot I smoked didnt help though. But, pot or no pot, because of this persons acts I feel like when I go to raves and such, people look at me and feel pitty for me or something. Like, because I forgave time and time again, more and more people assumed I was a weak person or naive. Truthfully, I might be naive when it comes to some things, but its only temporary, and maybe when it comes to this person I was naive, but I had hope. I feel stupid for having hope, because things I knew all along in the back of my head, things that made me have doubts very early on, are crystal clear infront of me and I hate that this person made me doubt my thoughts.
I am however, extremly happy that im over it, all of it. Its nice to know that there will never ever again be stupid arguements, where I know im waisting my time. There is no more hope, there is no more naive katy.
I am not weak, and im happy that im happy, which makes me twice as happy...DOUBLE HAPPYNESS!
Anyways, Im having second thoughs about t.dot, I don't think I can afford it especially because im picking up concert tickets tomorrow.
I think im gonna have to play my birthday card on this one since I didn't ask my parents for anything, yet.
But theres these really cute skirt and sweater I want and could never afford...
hmmmm I dunno what to do :S
Im gonna go make more cookies and watch a movie and fall asleep thinking about it.