|Posted On:||2007-11-08 19:16:29|
You say you love me, you say you care...
Then why when you talk to me you say such different things then that which you say to my lover? I tusted you with my life, little brother. I trusted you wih my heart and soul and many of my deepest, most intricate secrets. You know how I feel about certain things, yet you still use them knowing that it makes me upset to hear or to see..why? I know it must be a subconscious happening that doesn't quite get processed within the somewhat conscious part of your mind..
I get upset and lash out, not sure what to do and instead of apologizing you deffend your wrongs, when you know you are wrong..then lash back at me??
I will never hold this against you, or bring it up in future arguments..I would just like to know why..Normally I am calm..but you know feel about certain things and how they make me feel..I am sorry that I lashed out like that..but I guess in your world, two wrongs don't make a right..just isn't a saying you've learned..
I would love to be friends once again little brother, but please come clean and stop lieing to me..please if you're upset at my lover or myself, then please tell us what is bothering you..don't go lieing to him about your fantasies with me that can and will NEVER happenin this lifetime or the next..I hope you've learned, because I have, I my heart will always have a space for you, until you tear it out. I always give more than one chance, because I believe it's only fair..but when you use me and walk on me over and over and over again...then I think it's better you just tear that shrinking piece out an let me move on. I hope you can too.