Just Accept It
| Neutral [0]Toggle ReplyLink» KSjSwtrG3eunKUY4 a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 11:17am |
 Coolness: 41410 | Inquiry.
Having "grown up", that is, the most important experiences of the foundation of my life, were made of extremely intense sensory perceptions mixed with very clear and extremely powerful feelings derived from self awareness and perception blah blah, I went to raves as a kid. Now I know that my perceptions are different than that of most people, and I mostly know that my emotions are way more intense and powerful than those of "normal" people. If you also have "grown up" going to raves, and have had a rest for a while. Do you feel today that your emotions are sometimes too strong to manage or at least, too strong to be compared to the average emotion someone may have? This isn't clear, i'll edit later but I must go now. |
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| Good [+2]Toggle ReplyLink» Deadfunk a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 11:41am |
 Coolness: 152915 | This isn't clear, i'll edit later but I must go now.
i hope you do i dont understand what you wanna say |
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| Good [+2]Toggle ReplyLink» flo a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 11:44am |
 Coolness: 146235 | i think it rather enlarged the boundaries of many things : emotions (variety and intensity), points of view (switching and distance), biological sensors sensitivity, etc...
the good part is the openness it brings, etc... the "bad" part is that being kinda self-outcast from a social norm, you might tend to feel you lack understanding from other people, and less common basis to share... as you can do more, there are more things you can't really share with others. another "bad" part is that the sensitivity thresholds (for sensors or emotions) are kinda fucked up wrt what they're supposed to be i don't exactly feel that my emotions are too strong to be managed, but rather that they're not understood by others, or that they are nor compatible with a "normal" lifestyle anymore. but by working on it, i kinda managed to mix everything and adapt both of the sides to the other. |
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| Good [+2]Toggle ReplyLink» Kishmay_Pinas a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 11:46am |
 Coolness: 103165 | Sounds to me like you are suffering from a bad case of emo-itis |
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| Good [+2]Toggle ReplyLink» MURDOCK_ROCK a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 12:20pm |
 Coolness: 83785 | i agree with kishmay.... |
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| Good [+2]Toggle ReplyLink» Holly_Golightly a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 12:22pm |
 Coolness: 158645 | i think what you're talking about is being bi-polar. that doesn't have anything to do with rave culture. |
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| Good [+2]Toggle ReplyLink» Adrianna a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 2:50pm |
 Coolness: 42840 | I used to feel that way..unfortunately I fed into it and landed in th hospital...now I live everyday on a rainbow of different pills from the pharmaceutical world, in case this sounds fun I want to ensure you its not...being pharmaceutically "high" 24/7 makes you feel mentally castrated...please watch out for those strong emotions...i hope you find a better way of dealing with them than I did :S anyway...just watch yourself before it gets outta hand |
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| Good [+2]Toggle ReplyLink» flo a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 6:52pm |
| Coolness: 146235 | Originally Posted By BETTY_HAZE
i think what you're talking about is being bi-polar. that doesn't have anything to do with rave culture. "bipolar" is just a big word, like "schizophrenic" or "lunatic" to describe a behaviour which seems too unstable/unbalanced for the social norm... we all are more or less "bipolar" in a sense, most often not being aware of it ; but generally not to the extent which leads to the hospital. for my part, i wasn't talking about bipolarity in the way (i think) you mean it ; and i guess alpha wasn't either... (?) |
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| Neutral [0]Toggle ReplyLink» KSjSwtrG3eunKUY4 a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 7:07pm |
| Coolness: 41410 | -sorry, wayyy long. guess i didn't know what I was trying to say-
My last MMPI was clear (Minnesota Multiphasic Personality Inventory), so I don't have a personality disorder, and even if I had one, I'm wayyyyyyy gone, so I am the weakest link, goodbye. I'll remain in my substitution of reality and deal with it. I guess what I was trying to explain is that my perceptions and the emotions that ensue are no longer compatible with "normal", meaning people, things, stuff. I get security or the manager called at regularly because the points that I bring are too direct and too honest. Last week at the bank I accused the manager of being a sell-off because instead of actually fulfilling her mission to help and serve the clients, she gave in to management's desire to have her gather as much resources for the bank as possible regardless of the client. I was really frustrated then. I lay alone in bed thinking, mostly of love, and it makes me hurt. I can feel pain in my plexus area sometimes like a punch. It's really physically painful. This week I was watching a documentary about these 5 guys trying to re-make a Roman Byzantyne Fire-boat, and two Frenchmen made a pump and a catapult using medieval techniques and an english guy made the metalwork. Anyway, during the making-of, they were all worried sick of danger cause of the fire and they almost didn't go through. But at the end, when the two Frenchmen were pumping boiling crude oil and the Englishman was aiming the cannon nozzle, projecting a 1000° flame 100's of feet away you just could see that they'd forgotten. Then I said to myself, "And in the end, they were only saving the Byzantyne Empire." and tears rolled down my cheeks. It's not unmanageable, just like I used to cry at the end of the Little Mermaid as a kid, and many other Disney movies still today. I am also honest to a fault. Seems that I'e analyzed my own behavior so much that I am able to be honest with myself and towards other at a level that's just, off the chart or something. If your hair is messed up, I'm gonna tell you, cause I know no one ever tells you your fly's open and when I notice no one told me I'm pissed off, so I tell people, but they get pissed off at me instead. Stupid fucks. Drivers that don't flash are also a huge source of frustrations. When my street shit started I quit going to raves, cause I was a crack whore after all, and I just didn't feel it. It ended, I have a home and I'm pretty clean (methadone, pot, and I'm dying for A and E but ->) and I have tried to re-integrate normal society, however I haven't gone to a "rave" since many years ago. I started skateboarding, snowboarding, but not raving. I remember now that I used to say that I was a skater/raver -- 90's-prototype that never made it past a few revisions, though the "skater" did and is still going strong so maybe that's why I forgot the raving part. Anyway. I could never stand another day here, if there ain't no raver's groove to let me play. I guess you'll be able to catch me on the flipside, soon. |
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| Good [+2]Toggle ReplyLink» El_Presidente a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 7:11pm |
 Coolness: 299235 | me its the opposite. I have no more emotions |
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| Good [+2]Toggle ReplyLink» flo a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 7:18pm |
| Coolness: 146235 | i guess that at this point you just need something to focus your brain on... you seem to have let all your personality be taken over by your heart, and your reason/logic has been mostly erased little by little.
drugs can often do that, i mean increase your conciousness in your heart but lessening it in your brain. i think it's not good to be too much into reason/logic (like too many people in our occidental society are), but i also think it's not good either to be too much into emotion. i guess there's a balance to find, a kinda fair middle gound... it sure isn't easy, it takes time and will, but with a strong enough attention point (studies, cerebral work, etc...) you can manage to rebalance emotions and thoughts. Mise À Jour » flo a écrit sur Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 7:23pm PS : thierry you need some plur and ecstasy ;) |
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| Good [+2]Toggle ReplyLink» greatjob a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 7:20pm |
 Coolness: 282365 | wow, that was awesome.
flo is like ghandi, so rad. |
| Neutral [0]Toggle ReplyLink» the_worm a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 7:53pm |
 Coolness: 60965 | LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| Neutral [0]Toggle ReplyLink» KSjSwtrG3eunKUY4 a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 8:00pm |
| Coolness: 41410 | No, actually my logic is still very good I believe.
I used to have a 90%+ average in math 436/536 and sciences. I don't think I'd hallucinate fractals and have the blueprint (complete with measurements and equations for radiuses, etc) of buildings superpose itself to the street as I walk around right NOW, but I'm very Vulcan-esque, still. Logic is logic, if something is logic, then who am I to dispute logic? A penis goes inside a vagina, it's a biological fact. But a lot of people stick it somewhere else and they/we (I'm re-evaluating that position right now...) even have a Village (physical representation of the black market) complete with dwarves (they hang at Kilo) and elves (they're so beautiful). Who am I to dispute the fact that fat guys become gay just to "belong"? A lot of paki people stink! It's not olfactory terrorism, it's bacteria and spices (i hope). But it stinks! Am I gonna just sit there next to stinky bob waiting for the doctor? No! I'm gonna move and erect a biohazard field. But it does stink, and NO! I will not hang with stinky paki just to be PC. In fact, I'm a well-renowed mysigynist (again, re-evaluating) and racist. I believe many "races" should be fueling my car, but that's me. Again, it's logical. Natural selection. Why do we help 3rd world people escape natural selection? It's not logical! Damn it! I think Megohm and Musik Hall are closed, right? |
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| Good [+2]Toggle ReplyLink» DCRn a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 8:00pm |
 Coolness: 158145 | I think I understand how you feel, though I never was big on the drug side. I got myself out of the emotional gutter first through arson (well, fire really calmed me) and later on through always challenging myself to do thing, no matter how stupid they seem. Just for the sake of reaching that moment of calm.
Like, I'll boil with many different, very strong conflicting emotions and I'll focus all of it into, say, sculpting a mask. When that's done, I'm drained and for a few weeks, I'm normal. Right now, it's slowly getting into learning Esperanto and banjo. It serves no other purpose than saying, "I've given it all I could and done it". Because if I had to focus it all on the big picture, I don't think I'd be here right now. |
| I'm feeling 'sploded right now.. | |
| Good [+2]Toggle ReplyLink» Choda_Bean a répondu le Tue 12 Feb, 2008 @ 8:15pm |
 Coolness: 219880 | jerking off usually chills me out for about an hour. |
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| Neutral [0]Toggle ReplyLink» Strik_IX a répondu le Wed 13 Feb, 2008 @ 12:48am |
 Coolness: 88550 | Just Accept it...
You're a fucking racist douche bag who used to be smart and totally fucking lost it. Logic dictates that you belong to the "human" race, take your verbal diarrhea elsewhere and fuel my car while you're at it ya self righteous sack of shit. |
| I'm feeling myself right now.. | |
| Neutral [0]Toggle ReplyLink» greatjob a répondu le Wed 13 Feb, 2008 @ 1:20am |
| Coolness: 282365 | Yeh, you're a complete fucking nut job, that's the only clear thing here.
You puncture your veins and desecrate your body to prove something to us, but guess what asshole, we've already all been down that road and logically left those problems on the curb where it belongs, and by doing so lost people we love. It's bullshit, you're an HIV infected addict, and you deserve to die (maybe not before but after reading what you have to say, you're fuckin doomed asshole, I'm praying for your soul). You just completely discredited your whole cause with retarded admissions nobody fucking cares about and you're still the piece of shit we originally met 2 years ago, nothing changes when you're a manipulative racist cracker ass junkie. You don't have anything else to say because you're done. just go away. before YOU become fertilizer for the trees. Moron |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» DCRn a répondu le Wed 13 Feb, 2008 @ 1:23am |
| Coolness: 158145 | Whoa. |
| I'm feeling weird right now.. | |
| Neutral [0]Toggle ReplyLink» greatjob a répondu le Wed 13 Feb, 2008 @ 1:25am |
| Coolness: 282365 | WHAT? He's fucking crazy man! Tse, c claire non? |
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