as if its a contest... if i were in quebec right now... i wouldnt be writing this...
id still be at the bar.

2am?!? like WTF?!?!?

i think ALMOST everyone should try Ecstasy.
HOWEVER... i also feel that almost everyone ends up abusing it.

damage that cant be undone. be mindful of the future.

4 years ago, i quit for 3 months... i remember being so full of hope and goals...
then one little taste of Mary and i forgot... drifted off in a cloud.
a year later, i started this forum...

its been 3 more years and im finally back on the right path. its been almost 3 months again, only this time there is no going back.
i see and feel the freedom of being outside that cloudy daze. the weight of the haze, with my eyes a glazed...
lost in a maze... haha.

anyway, weed can help many people. its numbing effects on the body and mind could be medicinal.
HOWEVER, the majority of people use it habitually or even religiously...

Motivation is a gift, dont smoke it away.

there is so much wrong with this world, i cant just get stoned and forget anymore.

you dirty fuckin ravers... with your wonderfuly sketchy bassment parties.
funny thing is, its better to do nothing in Montreal then to try and do something in Ottawa.
definite good times.

i thought it came from deflowering virgins...

Die bad robot, Die!!

Thanks elka.

and Nice one Chelsea!!

and Kafwin...
as with everything in life is all a matter of perspective...

My annalysis,

**Foreigner**
Cold As Ice

"Youre as cold as ice,
youre willing to sacrifice, our love
You never take advice,
someday you'll pay the price, I know"

From watching some of my best friends fall into meth I know they never take advice...
and someday they'll pay the price, I know.

"Ive seen it before, it happens all the time
Youre closing the door, you leave the world behind
Youre digging for gold, you're throwing away
A fortune in feelings, but someday you'll pay"

I have seen it before.
It does happen all the time.
They close the door on a world that has a fortune in feelings... in search of something else...

for imagery's(and rhyming) sake lets call it gold.

"Youre as cold as ice,
youre willing to sacrifice, our love
You want paradise,
but someday you'll pay the price, I know"

Addiction forms a NEED that is willing to sacrific morality, loyalty, self respect, "our love"... all in search of "paradise."


But that kind of paradise doesnt last for long.
and they will pay the price.

I know.

fully, nickolson killed it.

no one could have ever,
or could ever be a better Joker.

ok. so now im REALLY cheating...

~ Transformers
~ Who Framed Roger Rabbit?
~ Beetlejuice
~ The Princess Bride
~ Masters of the Universe
~ Blues Brothers
~ Nightmare before Christmas
~ Batman 1&2
~ The evil dead, Evil Dead 2, Army of Darkness..(Yeah baby Yeah!!) actually, most Zombie movies...

Definitely a tough call,
but off the top of my head...

~ Fight Club
~ The Fifth Element
~ Boondock Saints/Snatch/Lockstock
~ Willow/Labrynth
~ The Lost Boys
(closely fallowed by any other Vampire flicks...
mmmMMMMmmmmmm Vampires!!)

ok. so i cheated.
5 just isnt enough.

fishy...

egg

**Third Eye Blind**
Semi-Charmed Life

"Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo...
I'm packed and I'm holding I'm smiling
She living she golden and she lives for me
Says she lives for me
Ovation her own motivation
She comes round and she goes down on me
And I make her smile
Like a drug for you
Do ever what you want to do
Coming over you
Keep on smiling what we go through
One stop to the rhythm that divides you
And I speak to you like the chorus to the verse
Chop another line like a coda with a curse
Come on like a freak show takes the stage
We give them the games we play
She said I want something else
To get me through this
Semi-charmed kind of life baby baby
I want something else
I'm not listening when you say
Good-bye
Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo...
The sky was gold, it was rose
I was taking sips of it to my nose
And I wish I could get back there
Some place back there
Smiling in the pictures you would take
Doing crystal myth
Will lift you up until you break
It won't stop, I won't come down, I keep stock
With a tick tock rhythm and a bump for the drop
And then I bumped up
I took the hit I was given
Then I bumped again
And then I bumped again she said
How do I get back there to
The place where I fell asleep inside you
How do I get myself back to
The place where you said
I want something else to get me through this
Semi-charmed kind of life baby baby
I want something else
I'm not listening when you say
Good-bye
I believe in the sand beneath my toes
The beach gives a feeling an earthy feeling
I believe in the faith that grows
And the four right chords can make me cry
When I'm with you I feel like I could die
And that would be all right, all right

[the following part was cut out of the radio edit]

When the plane came in
She said she was crashing
The velvet it rips in the city we tripped
On the urge to feel alive but now I'm struggling to survive
Those days you were wearing that velvet dress
You're the priestess I must confess
Those little red panties they pass the test
Slides up around the belly
Face down on the mattress
One, and you hold me and we're broken
Still it's all that I want to do just a little now
Feel myself heavy as the ground
I'm scared but I'm not coming down no no
And I won't run for my life
She's got her jaws now locked down in a smile
But nothing is all right, all right

[end of part that was edited out]

I want something else
To get me through this life baby
I want something else
Not listening when you say
Good-bye
Good-bye
Good-bye
Good-bye
Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo...
The sky was gold it was rose
I was taking sips of it to my nose
And I wish I could get back there someplace
Back there in the place we used to
Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo...
I want something else..."



**Foreigner**
Cold As Ice

"Youre as cold as ice,
youre willing to sacrifice, our love
You never take advice,
someday you'll pay the price, I know

Ive seen it before, it happens all the time
Youre closing the door, you leave the world behind
Youre digging for gold, you're throwing away
A fortune in feelings, but someday you'll pay

Youre as cold as ice,
youre willing to sacrifice, our love
You want paradise,
but someday you'll pay the price, I know

Ive seen it before, it happens all the time
Youre closing the door, you leave the world behind
You're digging for gold, you're throwing away
A fortune in feelings, but someday you'll pay

Cold as ice - you know that you are
Cold as ice - as cold as ice to me
Cold as ice

You're as cold as ice, cold as ice, I know,
yes I know
You're as cold as ice, cold as ice, I know,
oh yes I know
You're as cold as ice, cold as ice, I know,
oh yes I know
You're as cold as ice... (to fade)"



think of anymore?

I dont think of the positive things in my life as addictions...

I have realized that I am a hypocrite.
I make judgements, give advice, and have expectations that I cant even live up to.

When ever I think about my addiction...
all I can see is that scene from Half Baked where Thorogood (Dave Chapelle) gets boo'ed out of rehab for claiming to be "addicted...

to marijuana"


But I really AM addicted to Mary Jane.
Life just starts to lose its luster when I havent seen her for a while...

I have analyzed and contemplated upon my situation... but without avail.

So what I am asking of you is, do you know any Chronic(and I mean Chronic) potheads who have escaped their supressive mistress's without replacing one bad habit with another?

is it possible?!?

or any words of wisdom?

To be truely enlightened you have to realize how little you truely know.

Coffee is like gasoline,
fuels us to go faster for a short while,
but then you need more to keep going.
Its a draining cycle.

I used to drink coffee all day every day.
but it was wearing me out...
and now because of my insomnia I cant drink any kind of caffiene after noon or I wont be able to sleep... such as now.

but im gonna give it a shot now.

G'Night.

optimism

Or a Goose,
Hang around here while the weather is nice,
then when it starts getting cold...

ya just fly South.

the only challenge is making it through the states without being shot.

The Get Up Kids ~ Ill catch you

or maybe a housecat...
but I'd have to live in the country with some nice lady who always remembers to feed me and shower me in affection...

that would be the life.

sleep all day. run around and hunt at night.

/ cold??

ok then, my reply.

Hot hot heat.

Alpha Wolf in a pack that is ISSOLATED FROM MANKIND, like somewhere in the Rockies...

a simple but meaningful life.

I think this is the best music video ever...
[ www.starterupsteve.com ]

so simple... but so hilarious.
Im not a maso~gin~ist...
I just want BANG~BANG~BANG!!

mWahahahahaa...

.·º: ¶§¥ :º·. wrote: "One room Happy, and one room Hardcore"
That would be sweet, but alas Ottawa needs D'N'B for any event to be successful...
so one room is Happy vs Hardcore,
and the other is Ragga/UK HH/D'N'B/Hard Acid



and yes Chelsea, I said stoked.

stoke
v. stoked, stok·ing, stokes
v. tr.
To stir up and feed (a fire or furnace).
To feed fuel to and tend the fire of (a furnace).

More fuel for the inferno of Ground Zero...
mwahahahaa...

Nice Kafwin... as if you'll be in Ottawa that weekend!! you should definitely come.

but regardless we need to chill if you come down.

Definitely.
this is gonna be the best party that Ottawa has seen in far too long.
Im totally stoked for this event!!

We have to organize it so the Montreal Village, is closish to the Ottawa Village.
Since Im sure alot of Ottawa Kru's are gonna make it out to this.
I will, so long as I find a ride.
but that shouldnt be too hard.

this party is gonna be dope.

Zelda

The strength and weakness of mdma is the bond it brings. A very powerful bond. In that special place you can find on the dance floor.
We fell in love with the Power of the Bass, and the Rythem of the the Beats.

mdma only enhances that love.

but that trust isnt as precious to some as it is to us and that faith can be betrayed.

the sting of such betrayals burns on long after the damage has been done.

Meg ~ I fully agree, mush is all about the proper surroundings/environment.

Error-ize ~ I completely disagree. There are hundreds of thousands of different species of fungus, but only a few thousand of those are potent psilocybin. So alot of the time scum bag drug dealers will take useless mushrooms and put some form of chemical on it to make it more "potent" when in all reality they are ruining a perfectly good experience with harmful chemicals.

Psilocybin was almost religious for me when i did them. They can be very effective during periods of self analysis. But only when the fungus you are ingesting is actually psilocybin.

I could rant on for pages...

but ill stop it here.


for now.

Lenny Dee in Ottawa!!


Weeeeeeeeeeeeehhh!!!


Booyaka!!

Wow.
that is so relieving. Go Ravewavers!
I hate coke even more then i hate meth.

though they are very the same in the way they make addicts sketchy self serving manipulative scum.

I dont see why people play games with something so dangerous.

Its similar to trying herion.

I mean obviously its gonna be good.
the high will make you fly up to the sky!!

BUT.

when you come crashing down.
your gonna want another hit.
then another.
and then another. and so on.

its a dangerous game.
and i dont understand why people even play it.

I hate coke, because I have watched it destroy some of my favourite people.

turning them from such awesome people...
into self serving sketch balls.
who will lie, cheat, and steal to get what they need...

I mean Christ. there are actually people out there who will suck a strangers cock for money to buy coke. why would you do something that can make someone sink so low?!?!?!

i mean honestly.

it just doesnt make sence to me.

Sir~Rants~Alot strikes again...

any who has had a problem with depression should be VERY careful when using MDMA.

Personally, it showed me what its like to be truely happy, and now i dont need it nor do i get depressed... as much.

BUT, long term use or even short term use, can seriously damage your brain chemistry and lead to deeper more serious depression.

so be careful.
and a little goes a long way when you use in moderation. I only have to do a half dose now that i rarely use.

3 just seems extreme to me.



Actually, the only reason I do mdma at all anymore is for the bond it brings. It allows an old friendship to reach new levels of trust and respect, and a new one to bloom into something beautiful so quickly.

MDMA is a VERY powerful thing.
and i dont think alot of people fully realize how powerful it really is...

The main problem with the drug culture is, that since we are dealing with illegal matters.
we have to deal with criminals to get our supply.

I mean my friends arent criminals.
and there sources arent criminals.

but the further up that hierarchy you get,
the more terrible the people are.

So you can never be Sure of purity.

I think Ecstasy is the most dangerous drug you can take. Since you have very little idea what it is your actually taking.

MDMA does not press into a pill.
thats why its usually in a gel cap.

So if it is a pill. It must be cut with something. Usually, and hopefully its something good(like vitamin C or B12) or something harmless.

Unfortunately some people are stupid and dont think about the consequences of their actions and cut it with very harmful things.
or maybe theyre just plain rotten.

Or some people press pills out of other chems just to inebriate and disorient you so they can make an escape with your money.

so you can rarely be Sure... that its Pure.


I know im rambling again.
So ill end it off with...

Although MDMA is still harmful to your brain chemistry. And if abused can lead to depression and many other terrible side effects...

in small doses its risks are low.

I personally do it about twice a year.

usually sometime in april or may...
and then again late in the summer.

also i dont really find it to be a rave drug.

its more of a chillin at home with a fair amount of good friends and good tunes.

raves are too hectic.


Sir~Rants~Alot strikes again.

cause im coming to town!!

So stoked. Cant wait to see you all again.

See ya tonight!!

Sweetness...

i vote for some Trip hop in the chill room.

3 days left!!

This is gonna be awesome... im totally looking forward to seeing you guys again!!

i rarely get excited for parties anymore...

but deelite is gonna be dope!

4 DAYS!!!

so who is coming?!?!?

and im proud.

*lol*