2005 February:

I held onto the memory of you for too long
Feeling I missed the oppurtunity of a lifetime
Cat got my tongue and swallowed it.
Aches and pains as I could not face you with how I felt
I heard screams of laughter and saw you and your friends making light of my emotions.
I couldn't do it.
For 6 months maybe more the model of your car caught my eye
trapped it
hurting I could barely see the sun(SON?) through my third eye.
I thought we were meant to be,
invested time -- later regret.
wasted time, neglected pets, home family,
lost track-
as the time went by-
and left only a memory-
A day dream
Unrealized
and alone.