So 2011 brings something new for me: I met someone I can't (and won't) get off my mind. I know the age gap makes it a gamble but life is more enjoyable when you're optimistic, so I'm taking the plunge. I haven't wanted someone this much since my last real relationship in 2009. Respect my positivity and I won't diss your negativity.

Listening To: hardcore

if you want words, they're sleeping in my brain, they're dancing in my hands, i have invited them between the melodies, like spirals, like smoke signals. sitting in the center of the world, sitting on an egg balancing between the light and the darkness, silk and velvet dancing in the blue sky with the stars and the milky way.

visiting other planets, speaking other languages, embracing the colors and the darkness. lighting the candles, turning on the music, making shadows with everything. i will never belong, i will always be right there, i will always be there, where the earth touches the sky, where the water touches fire.

i am more complicated than this, i am more simple than you'd think. i'll just waltz in the ballroom of dreams, the one that was built with everything you left behind.

Listening To: coco rosie

sounds that penetrate you like a shaman's stare, guiding you through the maze of your own hell, your own worst nightmare... taking you to places you've never been, touching you where you've never been touched. destroying the useless fluff of illusion and fear from the inner sanctuary...

blood and tears. trembling. on the edge. almost like a rape of your mind and body, but you agreed to all of this when you step foot on the dancefloor, when you took the drugs that enhanced your experience. (remember...)

and you did it because you trust them. you trust that they care. you trust that they respect this sanctuary, and that they do it with love. and you trust that they will bring you back to a place of joy.

Listening To: metamorpheo